I'm still alive, I'm not dead yet. =P Reached Melbourne safe and sound.

Firstly, HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY, ERN!! I sms-ed you, but you never replied. 12 years of friendship, still counting! I'm really sorry that I couldn't be there for you, but who ask you to be born so late in Feb?? =P

Left Brunei on 20th, transit in S'pore for two days, where I did nothing but shopping. I have never felt so 'excited' - I'm finally in S'pore after how many years, and I'm finally in S'pore to do serious shopping! When I reached Changi, it felt so surreal. In the cab, I was thinking to myself, "I'm in S'pore, I'm in S'pore", over and over again... No pictures to feed your eyes, sorry, guys!

DAY 1 in S'pore

My mom and aunt were with me; my mom to send me off, and my aunt to accompany my mom. My mom had to go for checkup too. We stayed at a cheap hotel - 2 days only mah, no need to stay in some luxuriuos 4-star hotel. We went to Paragon. My aunt was scouting around for branded handbags for her colleagues. It seems to be a 'tradition' in her office - that everytime someone goes to S'pore, that person is always flooded with shopping requests. So we were going into all these branded stores (Burberry, Guess, Dunhill, Versace, etc.) where we were kind of 'ignored' by the salespeople. Sorry, we not 'posh' and 'high-class' enough for you kah? Lol.

There was one particular Chinese restaurant which stood out in my head. At the basement level at Paragon I think - the restaurant makes its own noodles and stuff, and I really enjoyed the meal - maybe partly because I was starving as well. Hehe.

At night we walked around some more around Orchard, where I bought lots of things to bring over to Melbourne. I can't believe how much we bought. My heart pain eh, see the money just ka-ching away like that. I also can't believe how easily my mom and aunt can just pay for the stuff we bought. Shudder. I really can't shop. I keep calculating. That's why I'm not a really good person to go out shopping with. Apart from that, I can't make decisions and I don't have an eye for fashion. And if I do buy something I like, I will always have some form of feelings of regret later.

Went to make glasses. I have a new look, people. I'm no longer wearing frameless glasses, but I have frames now. I still can't get used to my new look, but you can ask Chiew Hui, who has seen me with it. Lol. My world looks so much brighter and clearer now, though. 3 years with my frameless glasses. My astigmatism increased (again) but my prescriptions remain constant, which is good. And my frames are red and purple. It doesn't look as bad as it sounds. >_<

DAY 2 in S'pore

Um.. let's see. Memory failing me a bit here... Orchard again, I believe. Oh yes, my feet were aching like anything when I got up and planted myself gingerly on the ground. So painful... all the walking around. Shopping is fun, but tiring.

It was shopping, more shopping and even more shopping! Finally met up with Sherissa and Erin - we ate at Crystal Jade Restaurant at Takashimaya at night. It was really good to see them.

DAY 3 in S'pore

My last day. Leaving at night for Melbourne. At the airport, I felt all choked up with homesickness and tears again as I left my mom and aunt. My aunt cried a little, but my mom didn't. Haha, weird... But now that I'm here, it's not so bad the second time round. I know now what to expect, at least, and even though it's a new place, I'm not totally blur... I think. =P

The plane trip was 7.5 hours. I was on Qantas, and watched Corpse Bride and Pride and Prejudice (again). I started watching Walk the Line, but only got through about 15 min - it's actually not bad. Anyway~ I only got about an hour of sleep, and I got the middle seat. I reached Melbourne at 4 a.m. Brunei time, had to wind my clock forward by 3 hours.

Btw, it's already 12.30 a.m. here, and I'm still not asleep. I have my first day of classes tomorrow, and I ought to be getting a good night's rest. Everytime I look at the clock now, I keep thinking that it's still 3 hours earlier in Brunei. Like, now it's only 9.30 p.m. I can't believe it. I feel CHEATED of my 3 hours!!

I feel so regretful! I should have taken a double degree with Music. I have never ever felt so foolish and miserable with my stupid decision. After finally convincing myself that Music is IT. Why do I keep making these kind of mistakes? If I can get a distinction in my course this year, then it's possible to switch to a double degree...

Sigh.

I shouldn't have slacked last year... >=/

I have to transfer, no matter what!!

It's already 1:11 a.m... and that is 11 plus p.m. in Brunei.

My timetable is quite relaxed. No classes on Friday... wheeee~ Only 4 days of schooling. But I expect the workload to be heavy. I chose mostly Eng. Lit. units, and all are heavy essay-writing stuff. I chose Japanese as well. I'm going to learn a new language, and that's the only class I'm honestly excited about looking forward to. Lol. But it still feels quite surreal. I can't believe I'm already in uni. Time is moving too fast ... the past week seemed to have just whizzed by, and I'm still struggling to catch up.

Time out for me now... I don't want to KO in my classes, not on the first day! Sayonara!

Jerry, why you never update?

(I realize that I almost always begin each post with a complaint to Jerry. =P)


This Chinese New Year has been one of the more memorable and enjoyable ones... Now that we're all 'growing up', we can drive around, go visiting, and there are less restrictions as well.

Growing up...

Sometimes I wish I can just stay at this age forever. Everytime I think of the future, I am filled with mixed feelings of trepidation and excitement. Even now, I still have no idea where I'm heading towards. I mean, as for now, I'm decided on going to Melbourne Uni and hopefully transfer to Law in my second year. But I don't know if it's really what I want to do. Science holds no excitement for me. So much for being in the Science class for those two years, huh?

Medicine is definitely out of the question. I'm not that weak-hearted, and I don't faint at the sight of needles or blood, but needles make me nervous. (To be more realistic, injections make me tremble all over. As in, really trembly that I can't stop shaking. It's happened before.) Blood I can tolerate, I suppose, but cutting up someone's body is out of the question. I'd probably faint even before the knife touches the skin.

I used to want to become a journalist, but there's too many objections and doubts surrounding that one. Then for some time, I was really sure that Music would be it. But then, things happened and then the doubts crept in again. I know that my mom would much rather me do something else than music, and I know that she'd wanted me to do Law. Not that I mind. But I don't want to become like one of those kids who listen to their parents and end up being unhappy. I want to be happy in what I'm doing.

I want to enjoy what I'm doing.

Sigghh... I don't know anymore. I guess I'll just take it as it comes...

My maid isn't coming back anymore... She worked with us for two years, and she's the best we've ever had, but her dad wants her back in Indonesia, and she's getting married as well. My mom got a part-time one, but she won't be back till Monday, so I have to help out with chores till then. Anyway, I've got lots of time on my hands. I'm leaving around 20++ February. (Ern... I'm missing your birthday for the second time... =/ )

Anyway, it's really great to see everyone... Really miss those times in SAS. One of the pangs about growing up is knowing that we can never re-live those moments again. Moments that will remain forever as memories, to be laughed over and talked about, over and over again.

Don't you just wish you can turn back the time?